Awoke to an anxiety ridden internal monologue of why, how, where & when; questions and quarrels commonly frequented by a mind endlessly searching for explanations to certain details of the past, present and future
I knelt and aimlessly rummaged through physical belongings that were scattered among the tattered maroon carpet beneath of me, unaware of what exactly I was looking for but wholly conscious of the need to flip my brain cells inside out in some radical movement evoking a change, as I was expressing through the tangible motion of feverishly rearranging my items.
Somewhere in between folds of fabric was an energy shift just to get out... to feel the Earth. This was the resolution I settled towards.
After a few wrong turns, I ended up in a sea of trees unfamiliar to my routine of using nature as a catalyst for internal grounding; today’s trek began.
As I stumbled between indecision of which pebbled dirt path to wind down first - I took notice of my habitual thought pattern of stern control over my choosing, with intention of making the correct decision as not to waste time. I instantly deemed this quite irrelevant to the motive of my current situation and made a mental pivot to simply remove the grip of my perfectionistic side and go, freeing the ignition of my muscles natural instincts to do their thing uninhibited.
What resulted from this release, was the exact experience I sought after...
The World feels stable as I walk. The air swings thinly through the front-lined army of trees, giving life to the now dancing dangles of leaves and as I meander - I turn applause to respect their performance.
The abundance of raw ground beneath of me feels damp, soggy and graciously supportive as it receives my not-so-graceful steps over the uneven terrain while I, in return, feel an overwhelmingly unified connection to its willingness to carry my journey.
Sitting now, remembering to consciously ingest full bodies of air from the depths of my abdomen, my frazzled morning mental state has regained zestful understanding of the big picture; to feel, engage and direct our visions towards light, towards oneness, towards letting it be.
We are as aligned as the strings of bladed grass, as illuminated as the rays breaking the hollowed shadows and as purposefully directed as each road we encounter.
Relax.
Find peace; harvest it to flourish over your being - right here and right now. Let go of control.